I wonder where I should draw the line between being at peace and being patient or motivating myself. I have had times in my life in which I was very active. I have also had times in which I did very little. It seems now that I am actively moving towards goals I have, but little more. On all counts I appear to be busy. And yet feel so lazy.
I have recently written a proposal to be awarded grant money for a writing group. Vermont Psychiatric Survivors has allotted me $1200 of funding for my writing group. I have also written a cover letter recently for a peer specialist position and will interview fairly soon. This is in addition to doing all the writing I have been for this blog. And I have been actively maintaining a healthy weight.
It seems that I'm doing pretty well to keep moving forward. However, I often go to bed at 7 p.m. and take 2 showers a day. I know I could be doing a lot of things to keep myself busy and yet I just let my time pass. I understand that not having a real job leaves a large chunk of time for me to fill. I am moving forward towards goals I have set. I want to let go of self-imposed expectations to allow myself to feel good about myself just as I am.
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